Protector

The child who has just thrown herself like a shield over a rotting synth causes me to pause. Forces me to see her. She lies draped upon the cowering machine and she glares at me. She’s scared, but defiant. I shift my rifle, making sure she can see its aimed at her. She takes a jagged breath but doesn’t move.

‘Step away from the synth.’ My voice is sterile and authoritative.

She shakes her head. She’s terrified, but she still doesn’t move.

‘I am here for the synth,’ I say. My gun doesn’t waver, but neither does this small half-starved human shield.

‘Not Polly.’

I stare at her from behind my visor. She’s shaking, her whole-body rattles, but she doesn’t
back down. She’s tiny, malnourished, no different from any other slum rat, except that she’s brave enough to defy me, she’s able to overrule the animal parts of her brain that are probably screaming for her to run, to flee into the twisting alleys that make up the Pritech Quarter.

I am used to people protesting when we come for the synths. But not like this – Who’s going to look after me now? How am I going to get work done around the store without it? That thing cost me a lot of money. Am I going to be compensated?

Polly, an odd and soft name for a synth.

There’s chatter over the comms, other patrol members reporting in, synths being brought
back to the convoy, and I am still standing here considering this street rat and her Polly. I
have a job to do, I have orders, not worth the trouble of not doing my duty, I need this job. I lower my rifle and pull my holstered stun pistol, aiming it at the child. I will use it, I would rather not, but I am here for the synth, and she is in my way.


‘You have till the count of five,’

She doesn’t blink.

‘One,’ I pause giving her chance, ‘two,’ another pause, ‘Thr …’

The synth moves. With practiced ease I holster my stunner, swing my rifle up and aim it
at the pair, not taking any chances. The synth gently curls a hand round the girl’s bony wrist, its missing fingers, the index and the pinkie and the synthetic epidermis on its hands looks rotten. It can’t rot, its not real, but this synth is old and that’s why I am here for it. Another virus, the work of yet another smart-arse hacker is doing the rounds. The older synths have less protection, so it struck them harder, for the most part its just affected their motor functions causing erratic twitching and immobility. But others the virus has had a more dramatic effect on, like the service synths at Sukara Sushi the virus managed to take full control of their systems, and it weaponised them. After attending that mess, I won’t be eating sushi anytime soon.

‘I will come with you Protector,’ the synth says.

Its voice is rasping and weary. It possesses a human like quality, the melancholic echoes
of a lifelong lived.

‘No!’ the girl wails. It’s the first time she’s let fear and panic take control. Her stick thin
legs scrabble for a purchase on the synth as it rises to its feet, a desperate attempt to hold on. ‘No, no, no!’ Her arms tighten around its neck. ‘Polly, please!’

The synth is now standing, the girl wrapped around it like a primate infant clinging to its
mother. (I have seen those in reruns of centuries old documentaries, visited them in the
artificial zoo.) With its full form unfolded, I can see the extent of its deterioration, the ravages which time have worked upon it. It’s an antique, a Mark Two, maybe even a relic from the Mark One era. How is this ancient machine still functioning? Its survived decades, perhaps even a century.

‘It will be ok. You will be ok,’ it assures the girl whose face is buried in its neck.
Slowly and with great care it starts to detach the child. Initially she resists, fighting this
removal with the same tenacious ferocity from earlier. But then as if a thread has snapped, a dam broken the fight goes out of her, her tiny body falls limp, the fierce spirit dissolving. Her surrender fractures something within me, a shard of empathy pieces the calloused armor of my rank and role. Protector, here to collect, to bring the hacked synths in for repurposing, stripping down, recycling.

My rifle is heavy. ‘I can’t do it,’ the words scrape against my throat.

With a shaky breath I lower my weapon. My mind races – scrub the data from my helmet
cam, I’ve done it before, but for lesser sins. It’s a gamble, I’ve a lot to lose, people depending on me. I turn my back on the pair, heading away from the heavy shadows of this alley, the synths voice follows me through the gloom.

‘Thank you, Protector.’

© Juliet Robinson 2024, all rights reserved

child and ancient synthetic robot – bing image creator

Meadowfield Park

A tanker slips up the Firth

Seeming not to move but the river drifts by

I stand at the slide and watch her go

Wonder where and when she has been

Not long ago many boats sat out there

Cruise ships, containers and tankers

Anchored fleet of metal seabirds

Still like the world, if not the waves and sky

Funny to think of that time

No trains, no planes, all the boats stilled

And us tuckered away in our homes

A stayed and quiet world in appearance

© Juliet Robinson 2024, all rights reserved.

Mind Burble

I don’t write poetry and not because I don’t love it! I adore Billy Collins, Elizabeth Bishop, Carol Ann Duffy, Emily Dickinson, Maya Angelou and Ted Hughes to name just a few. I admire those who can create poetry, it is not an easy art and it is such a personal one.

But this poem Meadowfield Park, had been forming in my mind for a number of years. Its about my local park where even before covid I spent many hours with my dogs and son, but during covid it became a haven to us. I used to stand at the crest of the hill by the long metal slide and stare out at the ships which had been forced to dock in the Firth of Forth thanks to the virus. They captivated me. Who was on them? Where had they been going? I had so many questions.

My poem began there during covid as I stared at anchored ships and wondered when the world would return.

I sometimes can’t believe covid happened. Everyone’s experience of that time was different and I am not here to have an opinion on what happened, or the rights and wrongs of it. But I do find it fascinating when covid creeps into the arts – I felt numb the first time I saw it in a television show, I was oddly excited the first time covid raised its ugly head in a short story I was reading. To me there is something cathartic in seeing covid acknowledged in creative form, but for others I suspect it is the opposite.

Roddy Philips who runs the online creative writing workshops I have previously spoken about put together an anthology of the writers work that was created during covid – Still Life. I loved pouring over this book, being able delve into other peoples creative reactions to covid.

I have a reading wish list of books which feature covid, Fourteen Days – Margaret Atwood & Douglas Preston, Companion Piece by Ali Smith and The Sentence by Louise Erdrich to name a few. It isn’t easy to read about but for me it helps.

I wonder how other writers have handled covid and if it makes its way into their work. How has it been writing about covid? Was it difficult? How did it impact peoples creative process? Except for this poem, I haven’t tackled it yet in any significant way.

Thank you for reading!


       

         

From the Archives – A Short Story

Mortuary Remains

The skull was the colour of a tea stain. Elsa cupped it, in the palm of her hands and peered into the sunken eye orbits which leered unseeingly back at her. Behind her Hattie giggled, ‘She has better teeth than I do!’

Elsa couldn’t help but agree, the five-thousand-year-old skull had surprisingly good teeth. No stains, very little wear and a complete set to boot. And it wasn’t just the teeth, the rest of the skull was very well preserved.

‘She isn’t using them now, maybe you could borrow them,’ she replied as she passed the skull to the teenage boy standing next to her who was clearly a little too excited to be handling such precious remains.

Their tour guide had overheard their conversation. ‘Yes, we believe this individual was someone of high social status, which is why her teeth are so strikingly pristine.’

‘I thought the Neolithic diet meant that most people had poor teeth. Something to do with how they ground their grains,’ Elsa replied trying to sound casual and not to curious about the teeth. She knew this to be a fact, she was after all an archaeologist, but she didn’t want to make their tour guide feel uncomfortable – he was clearly doing his best.

He frowned at her and there was a cool glint in his eyes as he reassessed her from under his wild eyebrows.

‘Well, we believe that several of the individuals buried here come from the upper echelons of society. As we have a fair few skeletons in near pristine condition. Their bones tell us that they did no hard labour and that they enjoyed a good diet.’

Elsa wanted to push him on this. The Tomb of the Seals was a remote and desolate place and five thousand years ago it would have been much the same. Unfavourable farming conditions, poor climate and wild weather stirred up by the surrounding North Sea. Most people here would have lived hard and short lives. Indeed, that was still the case, their tour guide, a local farmer who had uncovered the tomb was evidence of that. He was roughly worn and stunted as if perpetually shrinking from a strong wind.

‘How many bodies did you say there were?’ asked the teenage lad. His voice quivered as he spoke, and Elsa rolled her eyes at the emotion in his voice. He was clutching the skull tightly in one hand whilst running the fingers of the other up and down the nasal bone, like he was petting a dog.   

‘During initial excavations we uncovered three hundred and twenty-four individuals. They were interred here over a period of eight hundred years. After Storm Quint we found various other remains, though not the cairn they came from. It was swept out to sea, but the bones, they found their way back to shore.’ Their guide nodded at the skull with the fine set of pearly whites. ‘She was among those. We only have her skull; it was found by a dog walker last summer.’

The tour ended with their guides wife bringing them cups of instant coffee and stale custard creams. As the other visitors milled around the car park, Elsa, under the pretence of needing to relieve herself snuck away. She wanted another look at the skeletons, her professional interest had been piqued. Something just wasn’t right.

She slipped into the old stone byer from which their guide had brought out the boxed remains. It reeked, the smell was so pungent she half expected to trip over a cow or a pig. This wasn’t a sterile environment suitable for storing human remains.

At the back of the byer, several heat lamps hung over some large stone troughs. A strange clicking sound, like thousands of tiny teeth or feet scuttling emanated from the troughs. Covering her nose, she approached, her nerves tingled, her skin crept, every instinct told Elsa to flee, but she didn’t. Instead, she peered into the nearest trough.

Thousands of shiny beetles scuttled and scurried, rived and swarmed under the lamps. What were they? She leant closer, staring at them, her stomach twisting in revulsion. She gagged and cheap instant coffee surged up her throat, which she swallowed down. The mass of insects separated for a second, like peeling skin, revealing the puckered and ruined face of the teenage boy who had asked about the skeletons. They were making quick work of his flesh, stripping it from his bones, his eyes were already gone, and his nose was just gristle.

Behind her the byer door opened. She spun round and there framed upon the threshold stood the tour guide. He smiled at her sadly.

‘Shouldn’t be putting our noses where they don’t belong,’ he sighed. Then he closed the door and turned the key in the latch locking them in the gloom together.

© Juliet Robinson 2023, all rights reserved

A Short Story

Though it probably isn’t obvious the following short story was inspired by Jack Schaefer’s book Shane. It was written for a workshop, the requirements being it had to include the quote …

“I leave you, to go the road we all must go. The road I would choose, if only I could, is the other.”

Which comes from Murasaki Shikibu’s, The Tale of Genji https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/7042.The_Tale_of_Genji a book I admit I haven’t read. The piece also had to be under 800 words. I chopped the quote up and played with it to make it better fit the story I wanted to tell. I had planned to return to this story, but as of yet I haven’t managed to do anything further with it.

Saquin Point

We came late to Saquin Point. Not a bad thing, for if we had been early or indeed on time, I wouldn’t be here to reflect upon what we found. The fire must have died before we passed over the range that separated the town from the Shifting Plains. So, we saw no tell-tale plume of smoke. It was around midday, so likewise we didn’t note an absence of lights. From our vantage point, the town was just a smudge on the horizon.

The first hint of anything untoward came as we passed an outer lying farm, it was mechanised so it wasn’t unusual not to see a soul, but it was odd that the large machines which tended the crops stood idle. Solomon who was taking point radioed the convoy.

‘Eyes right guys,’ there was a tightness to his usually relaxed drawl.

I glanced at the field and spotted what he was referring to, in large black letters someone had scribed on the side of a disabled piece of machinery.

The Gods love Chaos

We debated who the artist might have been as we continued down the road. I suspected it wasn’t the handy work of bored teenagers, but as things were it didn’t really give me cause for concern. Solomon and Nessa, however, were both spooked by the graffiti.

A mob of barking dogs greeted us at the edge of town. We stopped, puzzled by the pack and they distracted us, preventing us from properly taking in our surroundings. I didn’t note the lack of vehicles, I didn’t consider the absence of people or the silence. It was Maya who woke us up to the oddity of the situation, she tossed a half-eaten apple at the closest dog and pulled the pistol she wore on her hip.

I thought she was going to shoot the dog and snapped at her to leave the thing alone. She threw me a withering look.

‘Catch up Bryan.’

I finally took in the ghost town, the silence, and the faint smell of smoke. We left Nessa and Burke to watch the convoy and proceeded on foot, slinking from building to building, guns in our hands. We can handle ourselves; you don’t travel the highways with valuable cargo if you can’t, but still I felt uneasy and I kept thinking back to the message in the field.

As we approached the town centre, signs of violence started to appear. Bullet holes splashed along a wall, burnt buildings, looted stores, an overturned electric wagon and dried blood on the pavement.

The remains of a huge bonfire stained the town square, where once a baobab tree brought all the way from earth had grown. More words had been painted here, encircling the ashes.

The road I would choose, if only I could, is the other

We searched what was left of the pyre. I did so with my heart in my mouth, expecting to find charred remains, but nobody had been burnt in the flames. Thoroughly unnerved we stood in a clump as I checked in with the convoy, but only static answered my hail. Ashen faced, Maya started to talk, but she was cut off by the blaring of a horn, to be precise the airhorn from Solomon’s rig. Its shrill scream came from the opposite side of town, not from the Shifting Plains Road, where we had left the convoy.

Now we moved quickly, rushing through the streets, the horn crying constantly. At the edge of town, we found more graffiti, this time on the side of the school.

I leave you, to go the road we all must go

The horn reduced to a faded ringing in my ears, as I studied the words – did I want to understand what the scribe was saying? A loud retching sound drew me back. It was Maya emptying her guts over her worn boots. Beyond her Solomon was running, pounding down the middle of the road. In the distance, I could see his rig, it sat blocking the highway. I was about to follow when my brain caught up and I properly took in my surrounds. The poles that flanked the road, and which initially I had dismissed as being related to some construction project – the things that hung upon them, not things, people. The people of Saquin Point, they lined the road that led out of town, their throats slit, their eyes gouged out, their hands and feet hacked off.

I started to run, chasing Solomon down the road, refusing to look at the grim and silent honour guard, as I rushed past them. I caught up with Solomon moments after he silence the horn. He tumbled from the vehicle cab, his face a mask. ‘No Nessa, no Burke,’ he choked.

In blood on the side of his truck someone had carefully written,

Which road will you choose?

© Juliet Robinson 2023, all rights reserved

Cute Dogs and Short Stories (slightly shameful plug)

When someone sends you a picture of a cute dog and it takes you a moment to realise what’s in the foreground!

The Queue is in the short story collection Janet Armstrong, Shabs Rajan and
I put together. I’m touched when people reach out to say they have bought the
book and I am delighted when they say they like it. It surprises me when people
enjoy something I have written.

Short story collections are a wonderful oddity, especially when they include
work from several writers as the stories are so varied, they take you
everywhere, each writer has a different style and way of thinking. There is
something refreshing in diving from one world to another in single book.

We didn’t have a theme when we started putting Wayside together, but we did notice that water often featured in the pieces so that became the loose thread that connected our stories. I stress the loose part! And our writing styles vary wildly, but we enjoy working together and I love Janet and Shabs stories. 

Shamelessly sharing a link to Janet, Shabs and I’s short story collection

Excerpt from The Queue …

‘Donald?’

‘What?’ I shook my head; my vision was clouded, and I had a sense of disconnect. I looked around; I wasn’t in the hospital car park.

Seeing my confusion, the speaker gently placed her hand on my shoulder.

‘It’s OK Donald. You had an accident, but it’s ok now.’

‘What?’ I stammered. I must have knocked my head. I looked at the speaker, who glowed with the flush of health that the young enjoy. She smiled kindly at me, and her mouth was filled with perfect, white teeth, the kind that paid for an orthodontist’s retirement.

‘You had an accident,’ she repeated. Her voice was melodious. ‘But it’s OK now, you don’t have to worry.’ She smiled again, a generous smile that was all confidence. ‘But I do need you to join the queue over there.’

Writing Prompts

The above picture I took in The Antique Gallery of Houston, a place I highly recommend visiting if you ever get the chance. You can lose yourself for hours in the hundreds of antiques stalls there, there’s just so much to see and take in.

As I meandered through the stalls I came across a writing box. It was well worn and sadly a little overpriced for me, but its contents were wonderful. I took a picture of them, these snippets of someone’s life as they told a story, I felt like I could almost see the outline of the life these items had once been a part of. I hope to piece my own tale together from this picture as there was something so vivid about the contents of that writing box. What a great writing prompt – perhaps one someone else can make use of.

Sometimes its easy to pull a story out of thin air, but not always. Prompts help, I seek them out whilst all the time. They can be anything – a conversation overheard on the bus, a feather boa found abandoned on the street in the early hours of a Sunday morning, the sound of a pigeon taking flight under a bridge the flap of its wings echoing off damp stone or indeed in amongst the contents of a vintage writing box.

Notebooks

Various notebooks – the orange one for some reason I really don’t like using.

I know right? Not the most interesting thing to talk about but I love a good notebook, sometimes when I find a really special one, I get a funny sort of feeling that this new notebook might be the one to sort my life out. I have stacks of them on my desk, some bought because I liked the covers, others because I liked the feel of the book.

Some are full of roughly written notes, in my horribly indecipherable handwriting, others are stuffed with printed pictures, notes on things I have overheard or read, newspaper cuttings, magazine articles and doodles. Sometimes I just stick things I like inside them, more like a scrapbook, but I vaguely try to follow a theme in order to tease a story out. On some occasions this pays off and a story grows from those pages. One of those stories is The Drowned, which is included in the book Wayside which I put together with Janet and Shabs.

Page which became my short story The Drowned.

When someone first explained to me the value of keeping a writer’s notebook, I was really dismissive of this idea. But I shouldn’t have been, I’m a magpie, I have boxes of pictures, cards, notes, and items that I have been drawn to, notebooks are just a slightly more ordered way to store these things. Notebooks are a vague way to order my thoughts and perhaps tidy my desk which is always in danger of being buried alive. Now if I could find a way to stick all the stones I pick up whilst out walking my dogs into my notebooks I would be delighted! For now, these just pile up around my front door.

Trying to piece together a theme/feeling which may lead to a story, I haven’t figured out these pages yet, but I know there is a story here.

The Long Way Round

I started writing – ok – trying to write back in 2010 when I moved to the Netherlands and found myself unemployed. I wrote a lot, but none of it was very good, to be honest I don’t ever feel what I write has any worth. But I do enjoy writing.

Fast forward a few years and I was in the U.A.E where I joined a writing workshop, The Write Stuff. I loved this group, it was inspirational, so many different people from all over the world writing and creating. It rekindled my desire to write. This time I focused on short stories but kept the dream of a novel alive. I had a few stories published, including one in a collection put together by The Write Stuff.

Then parenthood came crashing in, and it brought complications. The next few years where a game of survival in many ways and it wasn’t until 2022 that I actually started to write again. I did a couple of courses with The National Centre for Writing, both of which were excellent and here I met Janet and Shabs.

When our course finished, we continued to meet via zoom (something I never wanted to use again after Covid), we talked books and writing. We shared prompts and inspirational things we found, we sometimes wrote together, we reviewed each other’s stories and though it took us a very long time … we eventually assembled some of those stories into a small collection … which we published today on Amazon, named Wayside, a title taken from one of Janet Armstrong’s stories. It’s a strange feeling self-publishing, I don’t like attention, I don’t like standing up and shouting look at what I have done. It makes me entirely to uncomfortable. But this is me trying to shake of that sense of discomfort … so yes Wayside, by Janet Armstrong, Juliet Robinson and Shabs Rajan. An eclectic collection of short stories which has been incredibly fun to work on, because I got to do it with friends.

Wayside – Janet Armstrong, Juliet Robinson and Shabs Rajan. In the Kindle Store and in print form from Amazon.